Wednesday, February 16, 2011

I've been sitting here thinking how lucky I truly am. I keep hearing and reading stories of how pregnancies go wrong and births go wrong and the little angels don't make it. I truly am one of the blessed few who get to keep our little miracle prem babies.

I can't believe that 15 weeks ago I was giving birth to my baby girl - 8 weeks early.  All the thoughts that were going through my head then. Will she make it? Will she be OK? Will she have any defects? I blamed myself alot of the time she was in NICU for her being prem. Was it my weight, was it my smoking, was it just my body not wanting to take anymore, could my body just not handle it?? I've learnt to deal with these niggling things and carry on with life. Because if I just let them consume me, I'll never be normal again.

Few hours old

Today my baby girl is 15 weeks old. I can't believe how time has flown.  It feels like just yesterday I got to hold her for the first time 7 or so days after she was born. I can't stop looking at her and thinking "wow, I truly have a little miracle baby". She is perfect in every way. If I achieve nothing else in life, that would be fine with me because I have achieved the most wonderful thing ever. I have brought a little miracle into this world.  And that is enough for me.

Smiley Happy 3 Month Old

She truly is my everything. And if I had nothing else in the world, I'd be happy just the same.

Have a fantastic day everyone xxx

2 comments:

  1. She is absolutely GORGEOUS!!

    She's beautiful!! She's so bright an alert and you can see the infinite light just radiating out of her! If you were questioning anything that may have contributed to her deciding to come into the world sooner you don't need to any more... ...just seeing this perfect little face confirms that EVERYTHING IS RIGHT.

    I'm already so excited for when the time comes that you get to bring her home to stay and live!

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  2. Awww thank you! She is the light of my life and I wouldn't change anything.

    She is home now and growing really well. After being born at 1.6kg's she is now a very healthy 4.35kg's the last time she was weighed.

    And I totally agree with you, EVERYTHING IS RIGHT and as it should be.

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